Can you hear me?

Sometimes I get anxiety over how trapped I am if I really stop and think about it. Everyone says...

Fri, 17 May 2013 22:21:32 -0400

Sometimes I get anxiety over how trapped I am if I really stop and think about it.

Everyone says you should be happy when you wake up and be happy with what you’re doing with your life.

But then everyone also says you have to pay your dues.

So how long do I have to not be happy to eventually be happy? Because happiness is not a guarantee, I don’t think.

Sometimes I just look up at you and I can’t believe how much love I feel. Sometimes I think I...

Wed, 03 Apr 2013 01:36:49 -0400

Sometimes I just look up at you and I can’t believe how much love I feel.

Sometimes I think I can write more, but then I stop at one sentence because that’s all I really know how to say.

You leave me speechless.

I’m really insecure about my body image. Working in the TV industry hasn’t helped that...

Thu, 28 Mar 2013 05:01:32 -0400

I’m really insecure about my body image.

Working in the TV industry hasn’t helped that at all. I have a bachelor’s degree in Women’s Studies, and I do consider myself a feminist. You’d think that by now I’d have a handle on all this.

The truth is, I don’t.

I recently joined 24 Hour Fitness not only in an attempt to ease my anxiety, but also to get back into shape. I miss being able to walk up stairs without feeling like I was gonna die.

I always think about how powerful I could be if I could re-direct the part of my brain that worries about this to something else. To making money, to creativity, to math skills. Anything would be more helpful than this constant worrying.

Do I look fat in this, does this show a bulge, or doesn’t it? I can’t tell because psychologically I’m starting to become obsessed, so is this a psychological issue or is it a real body issue?

Issue. What a word. A “body issue.” As if having a roll in your stomach is a flaw, a problem. There’s really nothing wrong with it. If you don’t like it, fix it. If other people don’t like it and you happen to not give a damn, that’s fine too.

I wish I could follow my own advice.

It upsets me that I follow the status quo on this issue. I wish I could just…not. Because there’s really nothing wrong.

I think when it comes to a body the only time you might ever be in the wrong is if you are killing yourself with your eating and exercising habits.

But then again, that’s your choice.

rapcoloringbook: This Sunday is Easter. Here are some 50 Cent...

Thu, 28 Mar 2013 04:53:04 -0400

rapcoloringbook:

This Sunday is Easter. Here are some 50 Cent Easter Egg Holders. Click here to download them. Print them, color them, cut them out, place an egg in them, then party like it’s your re-birth day. Listen to this while you do so.

Rap Coloring Book on Twitter

I bet you missed my face, internet. My webcam is just as crappy....

Thu, 28 Mar 2013 04:39:54 -0400

I bet you missed my face, internet.

My webcam is just as crappy. I offer no apologies.

I'm so fickle. But I'm back.

Thu, 28 Mar 2013 04:32:22 -0400

I tried some other blog platforms but I just don’t like them as much as I like tumblr.

Here’s what’s happened in my life since I stopped posting regularly:

I fell in love with a boy
A boy I had known for two years
And now we’ve been together for about 9.5 months
I got a job at a radio and a tv station

That’s about it. I’d love it if we could get reacquainted. :)

Snow in Hawaii (on Mauna Kea)

Mon, 25 Mar 2013 05:37:52 -0400

Snow in Hawaii (on Mauna Kea)

If you’re going to be cynical, life is full of pain. So full that it lurks at the end of dark...

Thu, 07 Mar 2013 01:18:00 -0500

If you’re going to be cynical, life is full of pain. So full that it lurks at the end of dark hallways where you knew light to be.

But I think what makes life beautiful, in some tragic naïve way, is when we live in spite of it. To walk toward the darkness, and smile.

I always knew I loved to write. I just never knew what I wanted to do with my writing. I like...

Mon, 04 Feb 2013 19:20:30 -0500

I always knew I loved to write. I just never knew what I wanted to do with my writing.

I like telling stories, but specifically I love telling the stories of real people. I like the imperfection of a dialect and the misspellings and improper grammar of raw communication.

I like that everyone is a little rough around the edges.

I’ve finally figured it out today that I want to capture humanity in words — the good, bad, ugly, the humor and ultimately twisted beauty that is human nature.

Have you guys ever had any interesting encounters in an elevator? Tell me about them!! With...

Mon, 04 Feb 2013 18:49:39 -0500

Have you guys ever had any interesting encounters in an elevator? Tell me about them!! With strangers, with someone you know — appropriate, inappropriate — put them in my ask or reply to this post!

Thank you, I am truly humbled by how lucky I am to be here with...

Sun, 13 Jan 2013 23:35:47 -0500

Thank you, I am truly humbled by how lucky I am to be here with everything I have in my life right now.

Yeah I haven’t been on in forever. Life’s just kind of taken over. I miss blogging though and whether it continues to be through tumblr, or another platform, I’d like to make more time for it. :)

I live in a messy apartment with my boyfriend. We started out with two twin mattresses on the floor,...

Sun, 13 Jan 2013 23:17:35 -0500

I live in a messy apartment with my boyfriend. We started out with two twin mattresses on the floor, pushed together.

Thank god we have a queen now.

But there’s just something romantic about the mess and the imperfection. Because I’ve never been happier.

He’s great. #NickOfferman #TeamSwanson

Wed, 05 Dec 2012 01:29:31 -0500

He’s great. #NickOfferman #TeamSwanson

Perfect little tree is perfect. @teamplayerjake #christmas

Mon, 03 Dec 2012 01:43:58 -0500

Perfect little tree is perfect. @teamplayerjake #christmas

Don’t you just have those days where you want to quit everything.

Mon, 12 Nov 2012 16:54:15 -0500

Don’t you just have those days where you want to quit everything.

Werqing 📻📡@KHVH #happysaturday #gpoy (at KHVH News Radio 830)

Sat, 03 Nov 2012 15:30:48 -0400

Werqing 📻📡@KHVH #happysaturday #gpoy (at KHVH News Radio 830)

#themoreyouknow #beyonce #boredatwork

Fri, 02 Nov 2012 21:39:53 -0400

#themoreyouknow #beyonce #boredatwork

"I’m dancing to put a ring on it…hehe"

Fri, 02 Nov 2012 21:10:27 -0400

“I’m dancing to put a ring on it…hehe”

- My dad, via text

The most sense #Dove has made all day. Was just thinking that in...

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 22:16:48 -0400

The most sense #Dove has made all day. Was just thinking that in order to do anything well, you have to be fearless.

Bright Eyes is good pity party music. It’s good because while you listen to them they...

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 16:20:50 -0400

Bright Eyes is good pity party music. It’s good because while you listen to them they complement your mood perfectly. But they’re also good because they’re too good at being mopey— so eventually you’ll get tired of them and be in a better, more optimistic mood.